A mum has laid bare her utter agony at giving birth to a miracle baby in the same hospital her husband died days earlier.

Kelsey Ferguson held her tiny 2lbs 4oz son in her hands and sobbed knowing he would never meet his 'amazing daddy'.

Instead of feeling overwhelming joy, Kelsey, 31, was also consumed with grief, mourning the man she thought she would spend the rest of her life with.

She had become a widow and a mother in the space of four days.

Earlier that week, when doctors told her that nothing could be done to save husband Scott, 30, she collapsed into a heap and vomited.

"I started throwing up and couldn’t breathe," said Kelsey.

"Finally, I yelled, ‘Is he gone?’".

She had been staying at the hospital, preparing to be induced, when Scott arrived after coughing up blood and feeling run down.

He had admitted himself but, because of the seriousness of his condition, was rushed to the intensive care unit where he later went into cardiac arrest.

The couple were supposed to be starting an exciting chapter in their lives with a new home and a baby they had been desperately longing for.

But tears streamed down pregnant Kelsey's face as she saw Scott lying on a hospital bed, covered by a white sheet with tubes and wires everywhere.

"Looking back, I think the other doctors were really sugar coating his condition and how bad it was," she said.

"I really didn’t know how sick he was. Nobody told me he could die. Nobody said his body was shutting down.

"They got a wheelchair and wheeled me in to be with Scott. He had a sheet over him. He looked terrible. Here he was, unconscious with tubes and wires everywhere. Gone."

She held Scott's hand, gently planted one last kiss on him and told him how much she – and their unborn son – loved him.

She was so overcome with emotion that she had to be taken out the room after almost fainting.

Scott then took his final breath and died.

"I will never forget that I wasn’t there when he faded away. I hate myself for that," said Kelsey.

The next two days were a "complete blur" for the mum-to-be and she can't even recall if she cried, slept, ate or went to the bathroom.

She just remembers hearing voices in her hospital room.

Doctors decided to induce Kelsey as they had concerns for the baby, whose 20-week ultrasound had revealed a heart defect and chromosomal abnormality.

Leading up to the delivery, Kelsey and Scott had not known if their son would survive.

Now Kelsey was preparing herself that she may lose the baby too.

As her contractions began, her son's heart rate started to dip and Kelsey was taken for a C-section.

Then four days after losing her husband, she welcomed Maxley Russell Ferguson into the world.

The tiny tot was born at 11.56am on June 12, 2018.

As the days passed, Kelsey juggled looking after her son, who was in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit, and arranging her husband's funeral.

"I would say my world ended the day he left this earth but in a way a new life began when our son was born just four days later," she said.

Maxley spent 99 days in the specialist baby unit before heading home in September, three days after what would have been Scott’s birthday.

The smiley youngster, now one, has defied doctors to battle extensive health complications.

He has undergone around seven operations, including open heart surgery which saw him put on life support.

Devoted mum Kelsey cherishes every milestone her son makes and is optimistic about the future.

But she still misses her "other half in heaven" every day.

"I can’t think of anyone who would be a better parent than Scott," she said.

It was confirmed that Scott had been suffering from Wegener’s Vasculitis, an auto-immune disease that attacked his lungs and had been diagnosed too late.

Kelsey painfully admitted: "I thought it would get easier as time went on but it turns out I am more broken than ever.

"He was an incredible husband and made my life easy. I was happy every single day with him.

"We did everything together and there isn’t a single thing in my life that doesn’t remind me of him.

"I will tell Maxley all about his dad and how much he loves him.

"We have a long road ahead of us in so many ways, but in the end, we have each other – and I count myself incredibly lucky for that.”

Kelsey's blog about her and Maxley can be found here and her Instagram account here.

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